My Dreams

I'm not sure what's been going on with me lately, but for the past week or so I have been having very odd dreams.  They have been about random people in my life past and present, but they are always very vivid and detailed.  

Then there was last night's dream.  I walked into a hospital room to see Robert lifeless in a hospital bed.  The nurse told me that he was gone, but she would try to see what she could do.  She hollered real loud and he woke up.  He jumped out of bed to take some pills. After swallowing the pills, he laid back down and was dying again.  I screamed his name and he opened his eyes and looked right at me. 

I said, "Robert, I love you!"
He looked me right in the eyes and said, "I love you too!" 
... and then that very moment after getting out that last word, he was gone again and there was no bringing him back. 

I woke up with hope and satisfaction that I was able to tell him just one more time that I loved him and reassured that he loved me too. 

But, as the day went on ... I seemed to get more sad as I thought about it.  What I'd give for one more moment with him.  I wish I could just have one last conversation with him ...

On another note, I was waiting outside with a few of my students because their buses were a few minutes late today.  They were asking to look at pictures on my phone because they wanted to see Peanut.  One of the pictures was the family Christmas picture (can be viewed in the previous post). One of my students asked which was was my husband.  After reminding her I didn't have a husband she said, "oh, that's right ... he's dead". The innocence of small children amazes me. It's the simplicity of life and death ...