Another First

This past Monday I celebrated another first without him ... my birthday. 

I've never been overly excited about birthdays, but the past two were exciting to have someone so close to share them with.  He always surprised me with flowers and some other awesome gift.  Going through the house this past weekend, I actually found the birthday card that he bought for me last year. It had a loud beeping noise when you opened it and talked about hot hot the person reading the card was.  He was just so romantic! ha! 

I couldn't help but feel a big hole inside me on Monday.  It was just another one of the big days that I had to experience without him here in body. What a hard experience. 

This is just the beginning of all the firsts I will have without him, and I know he's right beside me helping me make it through each and every day.  Everyone tells you it will get easier, but I still think they're crazy because the days seem to get harder and harder.  I'm just a day farther away from April 23 when I was last able to see his wonderful smile and hear his sweet voice. 

I remind myself that each day I make it through is also one day closer to seeing him and being in his arms again. 

I love you Robert William more and more each day, and gosh ..... I miss you sooooo much!