April

How can it be April already? 

This is definitely a month full of memories for me ... some good and some just plain terrible. 

It's so hard to believe that it's approaching the 2 year anniversary for Robert.  This week I've been replaying our last months, weeks, days, hours and even minutes together. I'm so thankful to have those to hold so close to me.

I've seen two quotes shared on Facebook this week that have hit so close to home.

This rings so true to me.  I see it in many conversations of mine that turn into, "before my Dad passed away", "after my Dad died", "before losing Robert", and "after Robert passed" ... over and over and over.  Two moments in time that forever shaped the rest of my life.

I would be lying if I said this wasn't a fear of mine.  What scares me the most is losing someone else that I love. Losing the man that I was supposed to be with for the rest of my life shattered every part of me ... The thought of going through any of that again scares me.

On a positive note, my mother in law, Laury, was released from the hospital today after 4 months and 5 days in the hospital.  Praise the Lord!!  After many surgeries and even more prayers, she was able to "break free".  She still has a road of recovery ahead of her, so keep on praying! 

Also, little Miss Brynzlee will be celebrating her 1st birthday this month!  Can't wait to celebrate with her.

Here's to holding memories very close to my heart this month!